Transformation requires all of you

So this thing, this transformation thing that I am working on, is encompassing. I can't just work on the fitness and not on the mental, or work on the mental and not on the emotional etc. Every part of me is in the process of change. How I feel about myself, how I feel about others, how I react to situations, what I want, what I can live with or can't live with...EVERYTHING. At 29 I'm desperately trying to find my way-my way out of the fog that I had been in, and the way to how I want to live and raise my children and grow as a child of God. 

I can feel the change, but it is hard. I was told once that when we grow it may look like we are breaking, but we have to break in order to stretch and put down roots. Although my summary didn't do it justice, the sentiment can be felt. I feel like maybe the breaking and stretching is starting to finish a bit and that I have at least put down one root. I LOVE that feeling. 

My ultimate goal will be to have my body and mind be equal. Something that I have never had. I don't know if it will bring me full peace, but it will bring me to a place that I am able to be a vessel for God and for other opportunities, not so caught up in my own drama and angst.

New Beginnings

So much has changed since the last time that I posted. It is overwhelming to even start in declaring all of the changes. The title of this blog, Transforming Jem, is so very fitting for how my life is now. The major change is that I am now a single woman. My husband and I split up 5 months ago. It definitely wasn't what I wanted or saw coming, so the aftermath of that has been trial filled but I am coming over the hill to the better side. I also have a full time job that I didn't have last time I blogged. My baby is now 2, my little man is pushing 5 and we have moved to a different town. Life is busy and tiring, but I am also trying to get a handle on my weight and fitness.

It was a difficult year to say the least, and when I am stressed, upset, bored, anxious, overwhelmed, etc I eat. I am trying to change this, though. I need the change.

So this is what I have been doing so far:
I have joined the local gym
I have joined a boot camp class that meets once a week, but it requires food tracking and exercising throughout the week
I have bought a new jogging stroller so that I can get out with my kids
I have signed up for a 10K race in June, and the Tartan Twosome (5K Friday night/10 K Saturday morning) in September

Things I need to get doing:
Stop eating so much
Drink more water
Get more sleep
Move more
Stop letting my emotions dictate my working out/eating
When I am working out, keep my heart rate elevated.

I am actually going to try to keep blogging throughout this whole process. This process of becoming the woman and Mom that I want to be.